| I FUCKING LOVE BSB!!! |
[Jun. 15th, 2005|11:21 pm] |
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| | NEVER GONE-BACKSTREET BOYS!! | ] |
ok so pretty much i can die happy now.
yesterday was one of the best days of my life..i went to see THE BACKSTREET BOYS at this teen people album release party in the canal room with Atusaaa..there was hardly anyone there and the guys were literally 2 feet away from us and i got an autographed cd!!! and its soo awesome and it made me love them soooo much more! plus they all got hotter and theyre just FANTASTIC lol..honestly amazing..you should be jealous lol
[ cause it's all so dark and mysterious when the one you want doesn't want you too]-bsb
p.s today was my last day of school!
<3 Ciara |
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[Apr. 12th, 2005|11:31 pm] |
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| | sore from lifting! | ] |
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| | the honorary title <3 | ] |
ok so i never write in here anymore its official..but ive been feeling kinda shitty lately so its time to let it all out lol plus i just got back from a 2 hour walk with nicole and my minds going crazy from talking..so here goes nothing
im really hating myself lately..i hate that im such a lazy mess. i worry about all the wrong things..and things that i let happen that i shouldnt. it bothers me that i know that i can be so much better at everything i do and what i am but i just could care less to do something about it. i dont give anything any effort. it honestly makes me sick.
but then i look at my life and it really is a hell of a lot better than it has been the first two years of highschool. and until about a few days ago i was pretty happy with most things until someone got me thinking about everything and made me emo lol. i think what annoys me most about my life is the fact that i just float through it. i dont try and push myself or make things happen..i just go with the flow and do what needs to get done to get by. i need goals and a purpose and most of all. a job hahah
next thing i hate is that im turning into a total guy about things. i dont care about ANYTHING. ever. even guys dont phase me anymore..its soo not me. i really just want everything to be no strings attached..and thats kinda bad lol im ciara so im not good with relationships..but the fact that i dont even want one the slightest bit is kinda upsetting haha its also so weird that i dont even talk to anyone from ba except for isaac and chris..what is that? i love those boys to death <3 but what the hell happened?
on top of everything im freaking out about the fact that we are seniors next year..WTF..i cannot believe high school is pretty much done..i dont wanna be old..it scares me. i dont wanna go through the sadness of graduation and the drama of college apps and stuff. soo uncool.
i really need a huge hug right now.
my birthday is in a week from tomarrow.
i think i want a boyfriend now that im thinking about it.
im so tired goodnight <3 |
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| my birthday is in 2 weeks!! |
[Apr. 6th, 2005|08:21 pm] |
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| | The Honorary Title- soo good =P | ] |
im pretty sure i have mono..or im anemic..i take naps for hours after oprah..sometimes even before oprah is done i pass out!..you know if im missing my oprah that somethings wrong..i should prolly go to the doctor but im too scared...
im really sore from weight lifting..god help me with this one i have to lift again tomarrow
i had my junior formal and it was soooOoooOooooo much fun! honestly the best time ive had in a while. i wanna go to prom now so bad! i need an excuse to buy my dress and i wanna party again =)theres 2 pictures on my myspace if ya wanna see
im so psyched for spring break!!! im not so psyched that my bday is gonna be a total bore..esp cuz im not with my BA girlies<3 aww and im not gonna get pied!! so sad =(
i REALLY need a job..my mom is totally up my ass about it =/ i really dunno wat i could possibly do tho so w.e grr.
ok im out!!! <3 xoxoxo |
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[Mar. 7th, 2005|09:50 pm] |
so if livejournal was my baby..id be charged with child neglect lol
hmm..cheering is over until training in april so im pretty much gonna be a lazy bum for a month lol but im kinda sad bc everyones starting their sports now so i have noone!!! and oprah is re-runs so im super sad lol... today was so nice me and kristen cruised around in her buggy with the top down =P i love that girl! and i just got home from walking to get ice cream with nicole and sitting on the sidewalk for almost 2 hrs talking..good times =D
i got my junior formal dress!! its really cute+ funky i love it..now i just need jewelry and shoes to match..but thats turning out to a be a real pain in the ass lol
im proud of my atusa because she started track today..richard is f-ing BEAMING WITH PRIDE right now let me tell you lol..and isaac!!<33 called me like old times so im pretty much a happy camper lol
i miss everyone!!!! you fuckerrs should hang out with me!!
i want a slurpeeee real bad right now..those things are addicting lol
p.s where did nikita go? |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2005|01:17 pm] |
hey there to the like 3 ppl that read this lol. lifes been good lately a lot of things are coming up soon so im a little stressed =O.
cheering is over on thursday =( im kinda sad and now im just gonna sit on my ass even more lol. i started tanning last week for formal which is turning out to be a major pain in the butt. dates + dresses and such are making my head spin..but ill get over it.
today is my last day of break =( and isaac was supposed to call me to go to the mall but he is a shitface lol..on friday i went to BA and had fun catching up <3 then we beasted at cheesecake factory..atusa got soda spilled all over her by the waiter..i ate all the bread..and we got lots of BUFFALO KICKERS! haha i realllllly miss everyone!!!!
ok time to stop being a lazy shit. adios! xoxox |
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[Feb. 7th, 2005|10:44 am] |
survey because i have no life like jen! lol
1) using band names, spell out your name:
C oheed and cambria
I ncubus
A New found glory
R ooney
A shlee Simpson
O asis
G reen Day
R E.M
A FI
D ashboard confessional
Y ellowcard
2) have you ever had a song written about you? haha one time topher made up a song about me like slashing ppl
3) what song makes you cry? lots of songs..but i guess the worst is "I will remember you"- sarah mcloughlin
4) what song makes you happy? BRAND NEW JONES- thicke
6) height: 5'4 and a half
7) hair color: dark brown
8) skin color: whitee...next month ill be tan!
9) eye color: green or blue
10) piercings: 2 in each ear
11) tattoos: no thanks son
12) what color pants are you wearing?: jeans
13) what song are you listening to?: I know who i want to take me homeeeee
14) what taste is in your mouth?: i have this chicken in the back of my throat haha eww
15) what's the weather like?: its REALLY nice out!!
16) how are you?: itchy..and pissed at my madre
17) get motion sickness?: not usually
18) have a bad habit?: tons
19) get along with your parents?: never
f a v o r i t e s
20) tv show: the o.c and one tree hill
21) conditioner: garnier fructis sleek and straight or w/e
22) book: perks
23) non alcoholic drink: milkshakes
24) alcoholic drink: malibu bay breeze
25) thing to do on the weekend: party like a rockstar
26) broken the law: yea.but never get caught
27) ran away from home: pretty much
28) snuck out of the house: fa sho
29) ever gone skinny dipping: not intentionally ahha
30) made a prank phone call: LMFAO..too many times
31) ever tipped over a porta potty: that would be fuckin hilarious
32) used your parents' credit card before: to buy concert tix
33) skipped school before: yup
34) fell asleep in the shower/bath: yea
35) been in a school play: yuppp
l o v e
36) boyfriend: no thanks
39) current crush: maybee
40) been in love: nah
41) had a hard time getting over someone: hellz yea
42) been hurt: all the time
43) your greatest regret: i regret a lot of things
44) gone out with someone you only knew for three days: haha noo
r a n d o m
45) do you have a job: i babysit.
46) your cd player has in it right now: one of the cds jengar made me <3
47) if you were a crayon what color would you be?: p to the ink
48) what makes you happy: music. shopping. friends. good times. being right. dancing. alcohol
49) what's the next cd you're gonna get?: i want britneys greatest hits cd
50) time you cried: idk like 2 weeks ago
51) you got a real letter?: hmm last year?
52) you got e-mail: today
53) thing you purchased: boxes in the pool yesterday
55) movie you saw in the theater: friday night lights haha
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
56) abortion: i disagree.
57) teenage smoking: pointless
58) spice girls: GIRL POWER
59) dreams: sometimes good..sometimes baaad |
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[Feb. 1st, 2005|10:24 pm] |
guess what?
ok ill just tell you..im visiting BA the 18th! how excited are you?!
im missing my bonding time with atus..and i think richard is feeling neglected lately..and i havent had tea in a f-ing LONG ASS TIME.and that needs to change =P
max murphy = my prom date make it happen atusa! hahhaha
kristen drove me home today..how cute is she?? these next few weekends are gonna kick major ass im pumped. i love how sneaky she was tonight as my ass monitor haha
now i get to bake for my little sister ashley espo hehe <3 |
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[Jan. 20th, 2005|09:57 pm] |
people are a little too presumptuous..youre not the focus of my entries haha
i pretty much have a crazy fever =( i keep getting the chills and feel like ima pass out which sucks. but my mother will def make me go to school tomarrow without a doubt grr.
i think im hitting up the mall tomarrow cuz i need clothes REAL bad lol and also still needa return stuff oy. then im staying at shannons on saturday wooo hooo =D i miss living there haha.
the entire rest of the season we only have games on tues/thursdays!! i hate hate hate it! ..oo and my lift =sucking a lot lately
midterms coming up next week ahhh!! im so nervous =/ but i get out early 2 days so thats awesome
right about now im starving..but too sick to eat blehh
i <3 boys who <3 to work out hahha |
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[Jan. 17th, 2005|10:35 pm] |
ive noticed a lot lately that when i stop being close with ppl they change drastically...
Directions: List twenty things that make you happy besides “average things” try to be creative
1. first of all..adam and kristen* as much as sometimes i get a little queezy they are honestly adorable <3
2. cheesecake...its just that good
3. looking at pictures..especially old ones its fun to remember old times
4. holding hands in your pocket...its adorable what can i say??
5. seeing my cousins..theyre the greatest
6. when i get excited about a guy..thats such a good feeling
7. dressing up boys!!!...its the BEST
8. listening to brand new jones hahah seriously download it youll just start dancing
9. riding in cars with boys hahah
10. my lift going up really well..its so fun and when it goes up good i feel less fat haha
11. when i get random phone calls from issac <3
12. time when my mom is really cool
13. having the house to myself...even if its just for a little while
14. dancing when i know noone is watching lol
15. helping my sister get ready to go somewhere..even tho shes a little bitch most of the time i like being a cool older sister.
16. OPRAH..shes my girl..no matter what shes there for me every day at 4 lolol
17. late night talks on the phone
18. people with pretty eyes
19. going for walks/going on the swings...thats what i did all summer <3
20. the oc/one tree hill...i like to live through those shows lol |
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|02:54 am] |
yea i guess im the worst friend ever
oo and im SO wasted right now
i love it when ppl never return phone calls
happy new year
{i had an awesome night til i got home} |
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